I do not know, the fat fruit one day, I really leave you when you how it feels. Will I have nostalgia, or will soon get used to you happy single life.
Sometimes think, I really do not know that our union is right or wrong. Apparently, I seem to be happy. Because in the eyes of others, you are a very homely, distressed people will care about a good man. I have to admit that, in life, you are indeed a very competent husband. However, to meet you now, more than two years time, you rarely give me a real feeling of happiness. During this period, including a year and a half we almost more than a month to see a face.
If you say, have to find faint happiness, perhaps lies in the half year not to meet with you at any time day awaits you told me, because then at least I can also be the other end of the phone waiting for you on time, forward to lots to talk about the care and comfort, waiting for your voice to send me to sleep. Maybe those who were looking forward to the days and nights, the achievements of my poor happy moment. Even then the wait is long and painful, but at least I can feel a little happiness. And I was so eager to Your Every meeting, despite seeing not help a bit lost, because you always return to calm appearance after a brief moment, left me with a cold world, while I was still a time of looking forward to the short-term well-being of each meeting. Perhaps I too firmly believe that when we are truly to be together for life, you will know how to bring me lasting happiness, no longer let me find the direction in the cold world. So, I look forward to each meeting, and look forward to our early reunion. Once your phone jokingly said to me, afraid that I have to then not so many words, and tell you your house after remember, I remember I said something does not quite do not care. In my heart because I know, at least, is the hope that our life I chose. But, finally, and you together. I found my world in the winter has only just begun, and you did not bring me love this this sweet and happy, but gives me a strong sense of loss and sadness, so I had to endure daily from the hope reciprocating cycle of hell heaven fall to disappointment. It feels really painful people suffocated. That feeling, perhaps you received from the moment it began, and has continued to the present, that I once thought, it seems that we never wedding, and you never found. To the present from the moment you received my math about nine months time. This paragraph where I am in life indeed been taking good care of you. The extent of the kind of careful and thoughtful, indeed I am moved. With some regret, I found you, everyone around you actually care about, not just me, it makes me still feel a bit lost than not to. In love, people sometimes really selfish little less unreasonable, seems to think that the other should love only to self has. Sometimes I also thought, maybe marry you. I'm really quite lucky! But, think about those you do not think they let me abnormalities sad and desperate things, and I do not know that he is fortunate or unfortunate. I do not know, I think too much, too good to think of love and marriage, or are you really in love before the performance and the vast majority of people do not like. But at least I think you and I know are aware of the vast majority of people do not like you love too formulaic, and no more perception, sometimes almost indifferent, it seems that love is always just the end of everything you occasional will be remembered fragments. I have often thought, you in the end there is not like you say, like me, love me. Or maybe you call love is just to be given to the care of my life, to take care of, so I have the best protection in their daily lives it! Because you bring my love, it seems more than a lonely feel cold on me, love seems to have become a distant expect. Although I am love to follow you, but you can not find the shadow of love.
Else speak first, and now feel that even the most basic exchanges have become so difficult. You should never found in normal circumstances, every Monday to Thursday, basically is the evening meal and I say a few words, and then did not say anything to the back room watching TV, newspapers or computer, wait until at least after 12:00 logical lay down to sleep, as if in you in this room. At this time I often have boring sleep for the next session, should I have to lie down for a while now! Because in most cases, I will not fall asleep. In fact, from my heart and is looking forward to night this time, we can feel the presence of each other, can occasionally chatting can sleep with, just the numerous observation, feeling you seem to be very few and I have the same willingness, you seem to In most cases, simply a person doing their own thing, and if we have speech mostly I mentioned, if I stop, you seem to be remaining, only calm.
The way you sleep so strange, always far back I seem to be afraid to wait until I will let you get infectious diseases. I have not come to your house a few days when a divisional quilt child to sleep, and continued down, because you say to a man building a quilt to sleep each playing scratch, rest well. But I do not think that enough has become your daily sleep so far away from my reason. For this thing I was really surprised, but also very angry. I rarely see my historical data was less than the more that I did not think it would happen to me, and at this time. You know, we have a total of only newly married less than three months, three months, we also only reunited a few days. I think this thing has been able to foot has stifled much we love, but also enough to allow me to remember a lifetime. But I have this painful feeling deeply hidden heart, Is this kind of thing can whereabouts Who speaks?
And each week is not the original is the time that I look forward to the most, because like you, Monday to Thursday evenings do not want to say more than words is tired because the last day of classes, wanted a quiet rest, I do not completely accept, because I have always thought that the power of love can make people forget temporarily exhausted, but must take into account your position, or give yourself a reason to expect. So, I am eager each week is not the night, just a weekend night, and in return I imagined beautiful. Weekend night, you have more to meet their own time, or more things you can do with may be more reason to stay up late, and do not necessarily remember I also exist. So a lot of weekend night so I lost more than usual. Weekdays lost at least the expectation of the weekend, and the weekend lost me, there is nothing to look forward to. Can only look forward to next week is not whether there will be a different situation.
Do life intimacy, such as rooms, but in the world of love, I did much forgotten, if you remember that most cases can not feel your warmth and sorrow had outbreak, you Perhaps you will think of your hug to resolve my sorrow. And sometimes doubt, why me and really how will the mood suddenly deteriorated. Yes, you never know what my mood is why suddenly worse, never knew the fact, it is I do not know how many days and nights before had repressed the outbreak. But, I feel like I is not a need to rely on mercy, by sympathy, love of people rely on charity to return. So, I will try to reject you, just to cover up his own fragile heart, in order not to lose the only statue made, and more eager to see more of you love signs.
How many times in the night, when I can not sleep because of your indifference, I have looking forward to you be able to suddenly me a warm hug, let me see you love me, let me feel your presence, I feel that they have not been forgotten. However, countless days and nights passed, and I have never been through a surprise that desire. I know, you once said that the reasons for holding sleep sleep well, but I do not desire you to hold me I long. And I also know that when a person is asleep comfort, but I also know that nothing can replace the happiness of two people embracing you because it will affect sleep abandoned hug. I did not know where the distance between us, waiting for you to embrace what is there. I believe that ultimately, perhaps, you are my favorite really less than eager to embrace the extent! I had to give this poor idea.
I do not know why, when you drink, there is always a lot of detached detached words said to me or feel my presence, you will want to sleep, and I hugged. So the beginning, I do not hate you drink, perhaps because you bring me happiness trace of sadness in alcohol psychedelic! However, how many times, and sometimes can not help but feel that you love in this way, as if nothing strange lady, but especially when you drink too much amount of simple values ​​may also become an unreasonable person.
Perhaps, in your eyes, you never feel that you do it all in place to fault, you just one thinks only. However, you never go think about you I do it all the time how it feels.
Your mouth life and tell me how much you love me, love me, but I found very little from your body and some look like love this this. I know you after several violent quarrel and indifference you complain. Occasionally you have to make close to my reaction, just, I can not tell that it was a real feeling of your heart, or just to give me comfort! Perhaps, at least this can reduce my pain. Just that I look forward to love?
I finally understand the truth, do not think that sexual gratification you will be happy, but also do not think that marriage will be happy. Embrace even if there is another big temptation, but only a perfunctory, would not make any sense.
